Nadhirah's

20 October 2021 It was raining since yesterday and it was raining hard today. No sign of Onnyx since yesterday’s Maghrib. She’s gone while I was playing monopoly deal with Qiya and Khairin. We went for few rounds of search for this blind black not-so-kitten. Calling her name, shaking its favourite toy and splatting her food all over the road hoping she’ll find her way home in the dark.  Woke up and immediately went for a search again around 7am today but still heard no meow nor its bell. God, I was worried as hell I can’t even focus on my work for the day. And to make it worse, I was tad hormonal and emotional today so I worked downstairs just to see if she’d come home and ease my way out the door to search for her in between my work. Another few rounds around the neighbourhood, still no sign. It started to rain heavily in the evening but I still went to search for her, worried that she’ll get wet. Fast forward it was 9pm, I was folding clothes and by the time I finished the chore, it

 Hi, welcome back to my blog. In this episode, I'm going to blog about my journey in applying for KPMG as a fresh graduate in hopes that I'll help someone in some way in their job hunting journey. I applied for the IT Audit associate position, which I honestly have no clue about until I saw the job post on KPMG's website itself. I was just dropping by every job advertisement that I found and qualified for and sent the form & resume & etc. Each time I applied, of course I read through the job description but I rarely remembered what I read hhaha KPMG uses Pulsifi as their 3rd party for assessments. Usually, a job would ask you to do assessments only after they've looked through your job application (resume, cover letter and transcripts) but not KPMG. Right after you filled up the form, you were asked to complete 6 assessments (about 5-10 mins each). It tests your maths skills, detects your preferences, attitude, problem solving skills etc. I did this during my 14

 I just curled up in my bed after waving to my boyfriend from my room. We are about 6-7 rooms away, which is quite far from each other. I can’t even see his eyes from here ahhaha it was such a pleasant few seconds of physical yet very social-distanced interaction. After a few seconds of joy, now I’m sad thinking about goodbyes so, here I am writing this entry. Today marks a month after unofficially ending degree (at least what it says in the scholarship agreement) & marks the end of the first week of quarantine. I still grieve remembering the day I was separated from my friends in New Zealand into each individual room in quarantine. Hence the reason why I don’t post it anywhere and didn’t even look back at the pictures I took a week ago. A week into quarantine, my appetite is still lost in the wonderland, really getting into colouring and starting my engine in job hunting. Nothing special. The workouts that I pledged to do, guess what, I didn’t do any but it never left my mind ever

As I promised to myself, I would try my best to write whenever I feel things, because procrastinating will only make me regret for not recording the present moment and I will tend to forget them. I’m currently 5 days away from my flight back to Malaysia and it’s 2am. It’s been a few days since I sleep at this hour because I am anxious about the current situation in Malaysia. Will I be prepared when I go home given that New Zealand is like the country that is exempted from the pandemic haha.  It’s also heartbreaking to say goodbye to Taufiq and say hello to long distance relationship, which we’ve never done for a long period of time before. The most we’ve done is 3 months, and the fact that we live 435km away from each other in this pandemic situation, 😭. Not only that, spending my two years here with my alternate sisters made it harder to say goodbye knowing that we won’t live with each other anymore. I literally tell every single thing that happened in my life to them, and that shows