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an insecurity

"aku ni teruk sangat ke?" this question has been repeating in my mind for the past 24 hours and i think it is very disturbing. for those who were with me for the past 24 hours and wondered what's wrong with me, i'm truly sorry but i was totally out of it.  so today i have usrah and i was, honestly, really lazy. you know, the point of me joining an usrah is to be better but well, syaitan's whispers are goddamn annoying but thank God nurin encouraged me to go. so of course la i go (ikhlas la ok). and let me tell you, thank God i went to usrah today. the topic was wide and huge but i think it really had comforted me, cik imah's wise words really calmed me down and it feels as if she had the same problem as mine once upon a time too. and turns out she became a beautiful human being in and out today. i don't know about you but i always have this point in life when i feel as if i was behind everyone in terms of attitude and heart. indeed, it is an insecuri